You know when your inner critic is taking over when your finger is on the mouse, ready to click “publish” on a blog post and you’re stuck like that for 10 minutes.
Usually, I don’t have any trouble writing, I mean you’d never see me write more than a sentence on a social post 2 years ago. Now I’m writing mini-blogs 😁 but I think I was stuck for 10 minutes thinking…who am I to write a post about stress. Joe and I sell pens for goodness sakes.
I am currently working through an stress reduction experiment and OMGeeeee can anyone guess why we’d be under any type of stress right now!
Back in February, I had lost my sister and last March Chaos crossed Rainbow bridge and of course, the pandemic didn’t help.
Things were not working out very well for me. I relied on journaling to help me get my thoughts out on paper and usually it helps, but this time I found myself scribbling words I couldn’t read when I was done, I found myself scattered and getting frustrated because I couldn’t write as fast as I could think.
Things started to change when I notice a cut on my finger and then looked at the wrinkles on my hand and then noticed how bright pink part of my pen was against the black. This was all while I was still holding my pen and just paused my writing for a few seconds.
I noticed my thoughts slowed down and I was able to finish writing another 3 paragraphs before my brain started to speed up again. This went on for quite a few days and I started to see a pattern. I continued to experiment with a few different methods and found out what the constant was.
Fast forward to two weeks later, I had carefully designed a pen that had the right swirls of colour along the lower half of the pen and Joe carved some groves just above the nib end.
When I was writing and finding that my brain was going faster than my fingers, I looked at the pen barrel, the colours and the grooves, really focused on the intricate lines, running my fingers over the grooves and noticed my thoughts slowed down. I was able to re-focus my thoughts, almost grounding myself into a calmer state. I get this way when I write about something causing me anxiety which leads to writing I can’t read and total confusion after the fact.
Anyways, long story short, I have pens ready to go out to 4 special guinea pigs who will be trying this experiment out as well.
I’d love to know if you’ve ever found yourself in the same situation when your thoughts are going faster then you can write? Do you have a special trick to re-focus? Let me know by email or share in the comments below.